The Clandestine

I would rather keep this clandestine

As this the only chance to meet the truth

As I see this matter is the axis of all lies

As I see the mother always be in pride

I would rather keep this clandestine

As I believe the four corner of rules

As I see I am nothing in the chapter

As the chapter never lies

I would rather keep this clandestine

As I believe the shortest way to meet the truth

As I see nothing can be entombed

As I see the only way by killing the cult

The cult who wears turban

Male Y & Female X

I am the result of the chromosome of X and Y but not a mixture-fusion of it. I am straight and never involved with the same gender intercourse though my previous alma matter was all boys school. The only boy in a very conservative family never trap me convert to be a faggot in fact I am rough verbally but tolerates. I always being classified as arrogant hence I am the ice breaker habitually.
The Y factor is definitely from my father and I grew a lot in his mould physically and behaviorally. The bad temper, pusher but I am a doer are all biologically from Ali bin Hassan. On the other hand my intelligent of far broad thinking, economic, good planner, reader and my leadership are all inherited from him. He is also a good motivator and encourageable.
When I look into my daughter’s stubbornness plus her temperamental I always blamed on me and my father. As a father, I always worry about her hard talk and argumentative hence she‘s good academically so far. Some of her vulgar words hurt me and I‘ve always received a bad report from her babysitter. I believe I am naughty by nature but I pray to God not to be happened to my daughter. Why? Because she is girl and she shouldn’t behave like a boy. She speaks English in the house but she knew to whom supposed she speaks Malays but there are times s a little bit confused. Though her English command not the accent type but it just enough to understand the English movie and that’s made me a big worried.
Most of kids in English movie are argumentative and stubborn and the facts that western has taught to be that way naturally. It’s best to prevent rather than cured. So now I bring her to surau almost every day and send her Darul Quran Al Husna after Maghrib hoping miracles on her attitude I let her joins other “religious” kids so that I wish she is able to be transformed. People said mother knows the best but not the father.

Continue Reading Ch. 10 - 20

Reading about our idol shaped our life sometimes perhaps it needs a high discipline motivated. I hate being nothing where my life considered time at large and a big void of emptiness is expanding. As a worker I like to be motivated, granted list of jobs and sometimes typically being appreciated. Being seconded and run a small unit without a goal is almost to die without a cause. Sometimes we feel our digest ability is far better than our boss and that what we think when the boss has never gives a wise decision. I too never like being horse-ride by the people but I would most respect if those people is much knowledge and could guide me. As time so long for doing nothing continues reading the best rather being pissed off.

Chapter 10: Going to Medical College This is the utmost chapter I enjoyed reading where he’d being described enter the varsities and his medical-college times. He then justified that running a country is not just about debating in parliament but also curing social, economic and political disease. He also seems enjoyed ragging the juniors but never being sadistic and cross the line. I like his love story with Hasmah especially their date in Marine Parade where he had to loan $5 from Hasmah.

Chapter 11: An Alliance is Born: The history is back but this one is more on political set up before our independent day. Many names were mentioned like Rees Williams, Oliver Lyttleton, Sun Yat Sen and etc

Chapter 12: From Theory To Reality: The practice time to be a doctor and he didn’t have enough sleep. A good lesson I learn from here is most people tend to react strongly to anything they dislike, ad he said that this could annoys others and doesn’t achieve anything. MAHA is an acronym of Mahathir and Hasmah and not his name alone hence Hasmah never walks to the clinic. The funny thing about being a doctor is most of people they came into contact were sick and some were dying or died during treatment.

Chapter 13: The Tunku Makes a Proposal: The father of Independent proposed for a freedom nation being highlighted in this chapter. He said that Catholics were unacceptable to be the president of US and they only accept WASP (White Anglo Saxon Protestants) - not a rock band’s name

Chapter 14: The Bitter Thrill of Politics He lost in 1969 in the GE to PAS weak candidate because of being too Malay in his speech. He also added that he never has a friendship with LKY only civil relationship but he stress that the LKY strongly wants to be a Malaysian Prime Minister.

Chapter 15 Expelled: He‘d being expelled because of the letter accused TAR doing nothing in handling May 13 rather than play poker all the time. Woo…woo!!...

Chapter 16 Inter Political Wilderness: In those days he seems a bit aggressive and rebel as he believes that putting neck out on believing something. But few people do that and they tend to play safe. He then described that of all his children, Marina is a lot like him, stubborn and argumentative. He also said he can claim to be the first Malay property developer in the country which something that most people don’t know about this.

Chapter 17: An outsider’s Lament: He is an outsider of the ruling party at this time.

Chapter 18 The Malays Dilemma: The book that hit him and he justified why wrote the book.
Chapter 19 UMNo Open its Doors: He backed on stage and he a lot praised TARazak. Few Umno leaders seem doesn’t like him backed like Syed Jaafar Albar . He saw most urban Malays so grieve because they have not made the necessary adjustments. He then commented about buying the latest technologies made no sense of producing small market and sounds admitting something hidden mistake.

Chapter 20 Into the Deep End: He added here that Malay culture notably middle class and urban Malay has become individualistic, competitive, egoistic and materialistic now. Of all, he admires TARzak a lot in administering the government. He again stressed why English is important nowadays. A good story about a sore loser named Halim Arshad who never passed his English test and fighting to be exempted due to his social activities in the campus. He then was being kicked from ITM and actively in politics.

Outro: Oh..Thank God it’s Friday. They are still in the meeting, I guess. I flipped pieces of paper on my table and saw one my articles being commented..Haaaa.haa…The only English words that the person who comments my articles knew is “Okay and I Think”...This left me flabbergasted the criteria of selecting leader.

Sahabat 2: mazidulakmal.com

I never thought that people would appreciate my writings nor anything from my brain cells. By the time I set up this blog just to fill my wasted times then at that time my daily routine sucks and it’s killing me. I also never ask people to read my blog as I believe they won't appreciate this much. By and large I really take this too personal. And that’s the most reason I never open any membership to follow my entry. Reason being, I hate to respond and this just my personal view and of course there are people out there who disagree with me. So that I think if they don’t, it’s better for them to write in their own blog. Perhaps I knew there are people out there reading this. Last two days, just give try to advertise my blogs at En. Mazidul’s blog (well everyone knew him),,, surprisingly he did advertised 1manusia on his Sahabat 2 .. …hahaha I sold out and go mainstream at last ….Other say earlier and later says another…yupp I too not an alien… Thanks… En Mazidul

A Doctor In The House : Chapter 1 - 9

Friday, April 15th . My birthday just around the corner but my wife bought the present already which is a book of my dream “A Doctor In the House”. I don’t waste my time , just pick up the book and start to read. To finish 809 pages I think may take quite sometimes but may be I am damn eager with the book , so that reading is better than sleep for this weekend. The first chapter 1 until chapter 9 is all about history and facts after facts. So if that the case you are not really into history and reading , please forget this and just pick up your Marvel comics instead of reading this.

Chapter 1 : Becoming Prime Minister

As a memoir, the first chapter may hypnotize the reader by telling us that he is the first prime minister who comes from ordinary family and he is also the first physician top leader instead of lawyer.Not really dramatic as what I expected but just a summary of his political carrier until he’d been sworn as the fourth prime minister.

Chapter 2 : Family Values.

I like this chapter as text visualized us how Dr. Mahathir is in his very early age. It is also derived us the way he brought up as normal Malay in small town and how hard work and his passion to his studies. He did throw his comment on polygamy practicing in Muslim marriage and he wrote something like this “The implication is clear: Quran advocates one wife, not four. By no means am I saying that monogamous marriages are perfect. “

Chapter 3 : I am Malay

He also try to prove us how strong his Malay spirit in his blood and believe nor there are bad jokes behind him saying that he is not really Malay and inherited Indian blood.. On his view towards the Malay “ I wanted to prove otherwise: that Malays were more than capable of thinking, progressing and leading. Nearly every Malay has some non Malay blood but that fact doesn’t make them less Malay. And he wrote that Britain has never had head of government who was not white or Christian. Then what's wrong by having Malay Muslim Prime Ministers all this while? Does it sounds the collective of votes and the numbers of Malays in this country? Again , the aftermath will comes later and people would say it sounds racism.

Chapter 4 : The Stories of Malay

Constitutionally Malay defined as a person who habitually speaks Malay, practices Malay customs and is a Muslim. He also quoted that a network of modern expressways and tarred roads, reaching the most remote villages joins all parts of our country together as a prove of our independence. During British time , only estates and properties owned by them would be accesses by the the proper roads.

Chapter 5: From Infatuations to Disillusionment.

A few paragraph telling us how British spinned the history for their own goods and benefits. They might not rewrite the histrory but change the character as the British always in the good side. He also elaborates how British Occupation controlled all the top post in the civil service and how cruel they controlled the economic by splitting the three major races in this country.

Chapter 6: A Wartime Entrepreneur.

Poor Dr. M and so pity on him when he wrote about how suffer on his diet during war time. “Even so I would first eat the rice mixed with curry and beans, saving shrimp for the last mouthfuls” He told us how suffer the locals at that time. “I just detested the fact that foreigners could kick our people and we could do nothing about it. We were a people with no rights, who could literally be kicked about. On his view about joining the government service he said “I think I did quite well in my little business. Certainly I was better off than my brothers who kept trying to work with the Government.” That shows he encourage people to do a business. On small business he said “There were a lot of things that I learnt from my foray into small business during the Japanese Occupation which stood me in good stead as I took on more responsibilities in life, including running the Government and its numerous companies.

Chapter 7 : Awakenings

He digs some Singapore’s story where the government would be largely filled from the ranks of those who were qualified and competent, namely Chinese and Indian. Malays would be left to take up low ranking posts.

Chapter 8 : A Political Triumph

I read thoroughly this chapter and I found the main gist is that the Malayan Union proposal can be said have changed the culture and character of the Malays completely.

Chapter 9: The Emergency

My God ,again with the history and this time is all about the Kuomintang and Japanese, KMM, the starving, ubikayu and stuff and cant wait to get another chapter. So, all these chapters all about the history and not so about his memoir.

Outro But I wonder how he can memorize those entire thing ; if it not by date of fact then the name and what had happened were so tough to remember. I think what had been wrote was covered almost every single gist of Malaysia pre war history.

Fuhh.. Okay I will continue to read later as my wife starting too pissed off with me now.…

The Fall Out Story

In the rapid progress of today with hustle and bustle, whether we are conscious or not, all of us are seeking for recognition. It depends on what discipline are you in and the group of your choice but at the end of the day, money, power, influence and reputation is the ultimate dream. The brain cells of Asian are totally different from those people in the West where there are complete of everything. There’s nothing to searching for and everyone seem like very ambitious to be environmentalist.

A hometown boy who had just accepted to study at a town-university seems desperately seeking that cool image and personal adornment known as the city boy or at least as a child of the rich. It is normal that occur on college campuses. Not forgetting myself who once lived on the way to seek the identity of a metropolis. There are pros and cons, the good thing I fought myself to be a buddy in the town likewise improving my English, seek for better job but the bad thing is the folk value had been eroded bit by bit. When I enter my post-human, I back to my roots. It is an example of ordinary people just like me.

Other say earlier and later says another. Lenny Kravitz once claimed he just musician who wants to play music and nothing can change that and his enthusiastic. No ones can buy his music and he will against the commercialism. Look at him now? Is he’d been sold out or his glitter disc is considered the good act by the God.

It is easy to say rather than make things done. When people at the top they tend to forget what they say before. Reputation and power is always made people forget themselves. Sometimes it's good to be at well below in the working mood decreased. At least we know ourselves and spiritual cleaning process is going well. The last time when you were not in position it’ easy to talk people listen to grievances from the grassroots level. But when the senses are usually forget to post away. When the people outside started barking then we realized the mistakes. Damn it’s too late.

I am sick and tired to talk about this. Like Henry David Thoreau said any fool can make a rule, and every fool will mind it. Stay committed to your decisions, but stays flexible in your approach.”Tom Robbin said. I said that the giraffe is a max spinner. Believe it.

p/s To the "movie" director, lets just finished off the storyboard. Dont fool us like a magic show and this is not another Kardashian story.

The Capitalist Stage

Capitalist stage is back. With the new color and image, it followed by the echo of the horrible school’s song. And after that, people will start cheering with the loss. Inspired by Steven Tyler in the U.S., so, the national rock icon had been chosen to be the driver of the plan. Those new capitalist actors are chosen among of their best in singing silly poems that put the malays in sleep. And then proceeds support was fished. A battle of cash flow in the form of short message system has begun. This is capitalist’s camouflage article. The plan is to delay the progress of thought of malay. – In this capitalist stage the actors has been selected by intended jury. To the last minute of the stage, there will be a victim who knocked out after against the cash flows that are not favorable cellular. Pity the fool. A fabricated grief produced by capitalist. Sick and tired of the stupid capitalists plan and disgust, I saw the story hit Kardashian 712. Indeed, the capitalist, but it doesn’t fool my brain.

P/s Bodoh punya Amy Search

Between The Devil Wears Prada and The Axis Of Evil

It’s really hard for me to watch movies at home safely. Since moving the new house, only last night I had chance to watch TV peacefully. After fetched Yasmine from Mengaji , I switched the channel to TV3 and 360 was on screened . The 360 prevoiusly was a crime programme but last night it was total diverted to a durian tv-magazine. I pressed the TV2 button and The Devil Wears Prada appeared.

This is the storyline all about.

The Devil Wears Prada is a 2006 comedy-drama film, a loose screen adaptation of Lauren Weisberger's 2003 novel of the same name. It stars Anne Hathaway as Andrea Sachs, a recent college graduate who goes to New York City and gets a job as a co-assistant to powerful and demanding fashion magazine editor Miranda Priestly, Andrea "Andy" Sachs (Anne Hathaway) is an aspiring journalist fresh out of Northwestern University. Despite ridiculing the shallowness of the fashion industry, she lands the job "a million girls would kill for": junior personal assistant to Miranda Priestly (Meryl Streep), the icy editor-in-chief of Runway fashion magazine. Andy is more to a desperate job hunter actually. Andy puts up with Miranda's bizarre and humiliating treatment in hopes of getting a job as a reporter or writer somewhere else. At first, Andy fumbles with her job and fits in poorly with her catty coworkers, especially Miranda's senior assistant Emily Charlton .

During a dinner with her father who came to visit her in New York City, Miranda calls her: the airports in Florida where she is are all closed due to a hurricane but she needs to get home and orders Andy to get her home somehow. Andy tries every airline company there is, but none of them are flying out because of the weather. When Miranda does arrive back at the office she tells Andy she has disappointed her more than any other of her previous assistants. Andy has a talk with Runway's art director Nigel who gives a whole new perspective of Miranda, her work and fashion in general. Andy decides to change and - initially with Nigel's help - gradually learns her responsibilities and begins to dress more stylishly. Slowly but surely, Andy begins to sacrifice her personal life to her career. Miranda notices the change in Andy and gives her a new task: delivering "The Book" (a mock-up of the next edition's feature spreads) to her Upper East Side townhome. However, Andy is tricked by Miranda's daughters into going upstairs, where she inadvertently walks in on Miranda and her husband arguing. Mortified, she drops the book and leaves. Miranda punishes Andy by giving her an impossible task: securing the unpublished manuscript for the next book in the Harry Potter series for her twin daughters to read on the train. Andy is just about to quit when Christian Thompson, a famous writer and acquaintance of Andy's informs her he has gotten it for her.

Andy delivers the copies to a stunned Miranda and keeps her job, much to her boyfriend's disappointment. When Emily falls ill, Miranda commands Andy to accompany the two of them to a charity benefit, where the two masquerade as partygoers while actually reminding her of important information about the people approaching her for a greeting. At the event, Andy saves Miranda from being embarrassed by Emily, who had forgotten one of the names; meets Jacqueline Follet, the editor-in-chief of French Runway and Miranda's rival; turns down an offer to meet a big publisher from Christian, but all the while misses her boyfriend's birthday party. One evening, while returning The Book, Miranda informs her that she needs "the best team possible" for her Paris trip, which means stepping over Emily. Andy hesitates, as Emily has been boasting about going to Paris for months, but Miranda tells her that declining will send the message that she is not committed to her job or any future job at another publication. Faced with this threat, Andy accepts. The next day Miranda then tells Andy to be the bearer of bad news to Emily who, meanwhile, is hurrying back to the office after purchasing scarves from Hermes of Paris for Miranda. Just as Andy is about to tell her, Emily crosses at a "no cross" point and is hit by a taxi. Andy has a rough day confronting Emily about Paris and then at her friend Lily's art gallery, where she accepts a kiss on the cheek from Christian. Lily catches this and berates Andy, to then confront her boyfriend about the fact that she is going to Paris. He realizes that they no longer have anything in common, and they break up.

In Paris, Andy attends the shows and even meets designer Garavani Valentino, being introduced as “the new Emily”. One night Andy comes into Miranda's suite only to find her in her bathrobe, undressed, and crying. While deciding on a seating chart, Miranda opens up saying that her husband is divorcing her, but that her biggest worry is for her daughters, who have lost yet another father figure. Later, Andy learns from Nigel that he has gotten a job as creative director at fashion designer James Holt's new company. Andy has dinner with Christian who figures out that she is single again. After a few glasses of wine she succumbs to Christian's charms and the two have sex. In his hotel room the next morning, while dressing, Andy finds out that Runway 's owner is planning to replace Miranda with Jacqueline Follet. Andy storms out to find Miranda and warn her. When Andy finally tells her, Miranda seems unfazed.

At a luncheon in honor of James Holt, Miranda announces that Jacqueline will be the new creative director of James Holt's company much to the surprise of Andy and Nigel. En route to another event, Miranda explains to a still-stunned Andy that she knew about the plan to get rid of her all along, but she found an alternative for Jacqueline and presented "the list" (a list of all the designers, stylists, company owners, and models that were "raised and nurtured" by Miranda and who have promised their loyalty to her whenever and should she ever leave Runway) to the owner of Runway, who realized that without those people, Runway would suffer greatly, was forced to reconsider. Miranda also says that she was pleased by Andy's display of loyalty and that she sees a great deal of herself in her. Andy says she could never do to anyone what Miranda did to Nigel. Miranda replies that she already did, stepping over Emily. Miranda tentatively comforts her, saying that those choices are necessary to live the life that she lives. At the event, Andy gets out of the car and simply walks away.

When receiving a call from Miranda, she throws her phone into a fountain on the Place de la Concorde. Back in New York, she meets her boyfriend for breakfast. He has accepted an offer to work as a sous-chef in a popular Boston restaurant. Andy is disappointed, but her hope is rejuvenated when he says they could work something out. Andy goes to an interview for a newspaper job. The interviewer reveals that Miranda told him she was by far her biggest disappointment, but that if he did not hire her, he would be an idiot. Afterwards Andy calls Emily while walking past the Runway office and offers to send Emily all of the outfits Andy got while in Paris, Emily feigns imposition saying the clothes will "absolutely drown her" but accepts. After the call Andy then sees Miranda getting into her car across the street. They exchange looks and Andy smiles at her, but Miranda acts as if the two are strangers. Once in the car, Miranda gives a soft smile before telling her driver, "Go."

Outro

I had seen more devil administrator than what Miranda did which is in my office now. The PU is what everyone call her, the axis of evil, the mother from hell and bla … bla… and yet the top one do nothing about her. Just wonder how sore loser of a top people just can eliminate that axis of evil with his power but do nothing and let people blackening from the back. The moral of the story is just going on and run your life because our life deal is only about us but don’t backstab people. In reality there some situation that people have to do so but if you do it, you might eliminate the human factor inside you. That’s the jungle deed.

The Death

The death of the answer to the earlier deaths. Nauzubillah